Wowzer...been a lil bit of time since I last HAD the time to write on here. Lots has happened in my life and I am actually pretty thrilled about the change. Lately, been feeling a stirring in my heart to let change happen and embrace it fully. Can't say what this means just yet, but in no freakin' way does it mean kids, so all you crazies just plop that idea back to where it came from. I may NEVER have them and I am actually pretty thrilled to embrace that about myself. :) I like who I am becoming: the strong, determined, and confident woman who knows what she wants from life and won't let others tell her what that is anymore. It's kinda fun become 'you.':)
Finally...the guts to let go of the old season in my life: completely. I, for the first time, a couple days ago referred to the church I used to go to as "their church" instead of "my church." Heard myself and almost fainted. No joke. It's a bit tough trying to move on from the church you grew up from age 3 at. I have really moved on in my heart after a process that started about 3 years ago. Crazy good times. And more exciting is that I now have room in my heart for a new home and a group of people who will become like family over time. Maybe I haven't met them yet, but I know in my heart it's coming, and quickly. The last time I knew this was in college and have since been searching for that group of people to truly call friends. I am pretty excited about this! Embracing the fresh change. And SO ready for it, in many ways. It's getting easier finally. I have hope that we have in fact found that church and can't wait to hang out again. Whew. And like 5 minutes from our house? That's pretty sweet.
Been thinking alot about what we allow to define us in life, without even knowing it at times. The house, the things we do, the people we associate with, jobs, etc. How often do we truly know who we are apart from those things? I feel like I am in a season of finding out who I am FIRST after stripping back all of that 'stuff' to reveal the real me. I am then adding to my life the things that compliment me well instead of trying to be someone who "fits" with the things that just happen to be around us all the time. Does that make sense? I feel like it's such a simple concept that is much too complicated to explain. I am thrilled to be able to form my life around the things I love and enjoy and make me smile. The old stuff is gone and much like old clothing, has been given to someone who can appreciate it's value and style. Just not for me anymore and just doesn't fit! I am ready for the new style and newness with this season! Bring it on. I only have room in this life for the things I love and the people who I truly care about and vice versa. Love you as you know who you are. :) Happy June spring cleaning!
It's so inspiring to read about your transformation, Sarah. I've been going through a similar personal journey these past few years and it's so nice to see that I'm not alone! In so many of your posts, I feel as though you are reading my mind. :) Happy spring cleaning!
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