Eeyore.

Today has just been one of those days. I know we all get 'em once in a while, but I'm always surprised when they come around for me. I guess it's b/c I forget what they are like b/c they are so few and far between.  You know those days? When no matter what you do, it's just like Eeyore switched places with the normally happy-go-lucky you? 

Just one of those horrible, icky, lonely days.  The house went under contract late last night after my feeble attempt to salvage it for renting with my friends.  Wouldn't have worked anyway, but I think it was me trying to cling to the past a lil bit.  So today, I was bombarded with many feelings that I just plain and simple did not expect.  The biggest one was lonliness.   It got me to thinkin'...why does lonliness happen to us, every single one of us?!

Hmm...let's SO go there.

So here's what I have come up with.  You know after a couple days or weeks in which you just eat/drink crud and then you feel weighed down and icky, no energy, etc?  You want to feel good again and don't quite know how to get back there.  I have found if I listen to my body, it naturally adjusts and craves the things that will be best for it to get my eating back on track...you know...all the great stuff....fruits/veggies, lean protein, whole grains, etc.  Then I feel the urge to workout again and get my booty movin'!   When you allow yourself to go through that cleansing time, you end up stronger in the end and have reset your palate for the good and beneficial things for your body's health.

What if God allows lonliness in us to reset us and allow our spiritual palate to readjust? If we only know our emotions to be hunky dory, we never get that really important time to see our need for Him in our day.  Today, that's what happened for me.  He was the only one around and I asked Him about it.

I had this thought:  In our insecurities, we automatically think that it's us and that the people around us just don't care or don't wanna see how we are doing. While this may be true sometimes, I think it's actually this...I think that God allows others to leave us alone so to speak, for a bit, so we can cleanse out all the junk we have allowed to build up in our walk with Him.  When it's just me and Him, He can take care of all that and cleanse me to where I have a fresh start in my walk with Him.  Instead of the insecurities, He challenged me to think of it this way:  He caused the "alone time" so He could spend it with me.  Like a mandatory cleanse, if I choose to accept.  I know I'll feel alot better tomorrow, but wowie, today was a tough one. 

So there's my thoughts on this ol' blog for the night. Gonna crash early. Really pretty eager to reset this day and start out the Friday in front of me.  Time to investigate those insides of my eyelids for a bit longer than usual tonight.  Sleep tight, friends.