Honest feelings.
Cuz sometimes you just need to get it ALL out with nothing more than randomness!
I want to start a family soon. (My soon means 1-2 years).
I have no idea what I will do with my career when we start a family.
I want to plan an amazing wedding celebration party for me and my Matt, but have no time or funds right now. Boo :(
I am so ready for feeling back to my normal, healthy self. Impatience is something I often need to grow in.
I wonder if I will ever get back to normal with good, rested adrenals.
I have to trust I will.
I absolutely hate traffic and big cities. They are dirty and make my heart yearn for the countryside and rolling hills. Trying to learn to like it. It's tough.
I love Matt more than life itself!
Last night was the first night in SO long I have actually woke up rested. I need to figure out how to get more of those.
I wonder if I can really honestly get back to my normal weight. I know I can, but it's hard to see the vision of it when I feel the way I do right now.
I feel trapped in my car. Sounds weird, I know, but it's just not me and I can't "zip" and let my hair blow all over in it. It feels too confining. Will sell that sucker soon.
I'm beyond grateful to God for helping me in my life and giving me my job. I love helping people!
I'm really excited to go back to school in September, but scared it'll be too much right now. I can't change the start date again, tho! Here goes nada!
I would like to buy a house sooner than later and before kids, but have no idea where we want to land.
I miss my friends in FTC.
I miss the mountains and crisp air around me.
I want to find a place I can run for miles without the buzz of traffic in my ear. Just the view of God's countryside.
I feel like there was no summer. Whaaaaaaa? Where'd it go? Too much responsibility and too little play time.
I have learned more in the past year of working than I have my entire life in a career.
I wish my family and Matt's could be in the same exact state. I love and miss everyone so much.
I think having 3 kids would be really cool. But let's start with 2.
Natural light in a house is priceless. Fluorescent lights should be banned.
I have been complaining more than ever in my life. Tiredness does stupid stuff to me. Gonna work on that.
I don't know when or if I can trust the church again. It's getting better, but it's tough to get inside those walls again. Maybe the church isn't meant to be contained in walls?
I miss the ocean, sunflowers, and seeing the countryside for miles.
I miss my puppies. This girl is meant to have dogs. We will add puppies eventually. In the meantime, the pet store will do.
Being a manager is tough work. Not sure it's me for eternity. Learning much from it for now tho.
Having an amazing boss is a gift. Someone who says their job is to mentor you is rare and amazing. A boss who actually takes the time and follows through with what they said they'd do: priceless. Already learned so much from mine now. Grateful for her and taking the time to pour into me!
I am partnered with the most amazing man there is on this earth. I can only thank my future mother in law for that for the rest of our lives. I love Matt more than life itself. He is my man!!
Learning that its ok to let yourself FEEL. There is cleansing of the heart that happens when you let out the days frustrations and let it go instead of pretending all is good and holding it in for another day's residue.
Learning to work on controlling only what I can control. The rest is a waste of time and energy. Let it go.
Learning to be grateful for any season I am in because it can be changed in the future.
Looking forward to being settled into life again. We will get there. No matter what.
Love that Matt told me he will still be kissing all over me and stuff even when we're 80. Love that man. :) He is not bashful or ashamed of anything! :)
I have found my football partner in life. He's 6'4" and loves beer and wings like me. :)
When I get my new car, Matt wants to drive it after it's "broken in." When I say drive it, I mean take it to the limits. Sorry, babe. You'll have to go test drive one to do that again.
When it all comes down to it in the end, I would live with my babe in a shack for the rest of our lives if it means I would be with him. The rest is just dreams and details we dream together. Happiness is found in the heart! God knew exactly what we both needed when he put us on that flight to Florida.
Friendships are the diamonds worn by the heart. They cause you to sparkle and shine. I would like to make some really good ones here in Denver.
I will do anything it takes to give my children an obesity and overweight free lifestyle for them to grow up in. So I'll conquer this now.
I love God. I love my family. I love Matt. I love my life.
I refuse to be someone I am not for the sake of anything in life. I will not sell out to be someone other than me.
I love puppy breath and those lil fellas running around in the dog park. I need my running buddies back. Need a house first.
When money is tight, it just means you get a chance to see why you are really happy in life and that makes me smile bigger than ever before. :)
It's Sunday and I am gonna go to the pool and lounge. Why? Because I get to enjoy one of God's best creations: the sunshine and water.
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